The world was in her eyes and everything was calm

It's so weird to think of how my style has changed over the years. This whole blog has been some freaky experiment of self-discovery. The 15 year old who started this blog back in 2008 with the simple goal of "try wearing new things, like v-neck t-shirts" has grown into something so much more. V-necks are an after-thought now...who cares about the neckline of my shirt? Are v-necks really that revolutionary? To the shy high school sophomore, I guess they were.   If, when I was 15, I were to look at girls wearing clothes like I wear today, I probably would've died with jealousy that they even had the guts to wear such things. I mean, shorts were completely out of the question. As were crop tops, sheer tights, or baggy jeans. When I was really young, I fearlessly wore whatever I wanted - green overalls, head-to-toe tie dye...heck, I wore velvet bell-bottoms when I was in elementary school (yet for some reason I wasn't the most popular kid in class) and I even had my first pair of Doc Martens when I was 3 or 4 (lady bug print). When I hit middle school & high school, I lost all my confidence and suddenly everything I did and said and wore mattered. I put myself down constantly and was too shy to be myself. I'm glad I'm past that. I'm glad that I am free to be myself once again. And really, I still apply the same philosophy when it comes to getting dressed as when I was in elementary school - to have fun!   I've been watching too many '90s movies and television. I want to constantly be wearing kick ass boots, velvet, florals, and flannel. And of course, high waisted everything! It feels like style was truly a form of self-expression back in the '90s. I suppose even further back than that, really, but these days what most of my peers are wearing tends to be so...dull. I can't imagine that the large majority of my peer group is really that dull on the inside, but they present it as such on the outside.   Despite the fact that I am horribly outspoken, I still feel like I should present my personality through my clothes. I have the terrible habit of saying anything that's on my mind, even if it may be deemed as slightly inapropriate for the setting. I'm fearless about saying such things, because I am so confident in myself and in my opinions. This isn't always such a bad thing, is it? Our society tends to silence women, I find it refreshing when women still have the guts to say what they wish. Now if only everyone would start wearing what they wish!   Today, I am wearing my MinkPink floral shorts, a velvet shirt from the thrift shop, a suede vest from Tunnel Vision, my "letterman" jacket from UO, and my favourite pair of kick ass boots. It was perfect for the autumnal weather and I'm so excited to finally get to wear this vest! When I saw it on the Tunnel Vision website (in the sale section, squee!) I snatched it up quick. I'm also wearing a necklace that my best friend gifted to me when I graduated. It's beautiful. I love wearing jewelry that reminds me of people I love.   Remember those 3 midterms I took last week? Well, I got results back - A, A, B+! This semester is already starting out so well! Only 8 weeks left, I need to stick this out. I am so motivated to do well academically once again. I started university when I was 16. I felt so far ahead of my peers, I felt like I had all the motivation in the world. That's all vanished and I'm working hard on getting it back and to get out there and see the world. Stay tuned!   Okay well this has turned out to be a less-than-amusing blog post. I just cannot be amusing tonight, I'm extremely nervous over the vice presidential debate! The presidential one last week went so badly, I'd just like to forget that it ever even happened. Knock 'em dead, Joe Biden! I'm rooting for you! xx